Thank you: Fly So High

When a friendship falls apart, it's so easy to focus on all the negativities. To tell yourself you're better off. It's so sad to see what friendship can become. Something so special and enriching, something that brings you so much happiness becomes a source of pain. It becomes hostile. It shouldn't be. Theres a quote that says,  "never regret something that once made you smile." When friendship falls apart, instead of feeling regret, instead of focusing on the sadness, you should celebrate the fact that it once brought you so much happiness. So I choose to be thankful for all the joy and memories those past friendships brought me, and so begins a series of 'thank you letters', because despite all the pointless drama toward the end, the friendships were truly beautiful.

Thank you.
Thank you for existing. Thank you for helping me find the love of my life. I'm not sure we would have found our way to each other, had it not been for you. Thank you for making me feel like I belonged. That there was someone out there that truly knew me, and loved me despite all my flaws. There was someone who understood me. Thank you for showing me how to be myself. You broke through this old soul and taught me to have a young heart. You taught me to be light on my feet, to have fun, to rise above peoples opinions. You helped shape me, you helped me become the woman I am today. Thank you for that time at the retreat, when I couldn't stop crying. You hugged me, then made a little quip and made me laugh... so hard, which made you laugh of course. Thank you for screaming with me that whole hayride. Thank you for loving all the celebrities and characters I loved, because we could discuss them as if they were our mutual friends. Thank you for getting him to admit he liked me at the school dance. It was such a high school moment, that I giggle when I think of it. Thank you for believing in me, and teaching me to believe in myself. You gave me confidence when I had none. You were always my biggest fan, in more ways then a one. You believed in my music, you even helped inspire some of it. Thank you for always standing up for me. You always had my back. Thank you for giving me a friendship that was always void of competition or jealousy. A friendship filled with so much love and support. Thank you for giving me so much more then a best friend. You gave me a sister, and that was something I always wanted. You and I from a family full of boys, were finally able to have sisters. A sister to come to family camp and Christmases. Remember when we danced in front of the Christmas tree? Remember all the trouble we would get into? We were always so mischievous. There are so many stories that I will tell my children someday. Trust that your memory will never be forgotten. You were going to be their godmother, you know? I couldn't think of a more amazingly bright ray of light to shine in my children's lives. So I will make sure that you will be apart of their lives in some way. Even if it's just funny stories about our adventures that they hear about. Remember Cassies me n you? We loved that song. You know, someday even if we are 80 years old, i hope we take one last picture on the dunes. Ah the dunes. Silver lake will always have a special place in my heart for so many reasons, and you are a lot of them. Remember that day we sat on the side of the road cause it was so sunny out, while we waited for Joe to get the car fixed? Remember our weird dance? Do you hear something? That noise... We always loved sunshine more then the average person. It made us so happy. We loved just about everything. We were always awesome like that. Thanks for all those times you laid on the floor with me and listened to music, that helped me way more then you realized, especially when that family drama happened. You really helped me through that. You let me cry, or laugh, or sit silently and you never judged the way I grieved. Remember how our hair kept accidentally getting cut short? We were so frustrated.  How about mint lip gloss, bratz, tommy and jude, champagne and limos, hiking the ledges, the dot in the sand, butterfly fly so high. I could go on and on, but seven years is really hard to summarize. So I guess I will stay thank you for letting me know you. It was such an honor and a privilege, and nothing will ever change that. We never stood against each other, but we stood side by side. Your strength constantly inspired me. When you had so many obstacles, or people standing against you, you stood strong, chin up, smile on your face. I never had any doubts in defending you, you inspired me so much. You were just SO many things I loved. I wish I could have been the same for you... and by the way. Happy Birthday.