Thank you: Whispers

Thank YOU  for existing. Thank you for making me laugh harder then i've laughed. I think that I would laugh so hard, I couldn't breathe, every time we were together. Thank you for all of the spontaneous dance sessions we had together. Thank you for all of those lazy days, when we didn't give a crap about what we looked like and we laid around all day knitting or watching TV. Thank you for chasing down the ice cream truck with me that day, even though you were sick. Remember the whispers? That was so hilarious. I tried so hard to stop laughing. Thank you for making up that one thing about that one situation to that one person, so we could go to that one place :)  And we just drove, not a care in the world, we drove and we shopped. We listened to music, we had the moon roof open, and we laugh and there was all the time in the world. We left Michigan and felt like a weight had been lifted off our shoulders, like we weren't stuck, and we could just leave the state on a whim. I thought that was one of the best days, but then there was saugatuck. We were one with nature and we felt so free and so close. To quote one of my favorite books, "In that moment, I swear we were infinite. "
       Thank you for making me smile when he made me sad. I wanted to cry but we tried to get tattoos, and got scared by a homeless man who didn't want bread, and then we talked and talked until you made me feel better. Thank you SO much. You really really helped me. Thank you for those times you generously gave your time and resources. For those times you helped me and my friends without expecting anything in return. Thank you for that time you brought me tea, and for that time he bought me lunch, and brought us sushi. I know that was because of you.
       I know that words were said, because I was hurt, and sad, but if you believe anything, believe this letter, because this journal (it started in my journal) is where I wear my heart on my sleeve. Thank you for all of our mischief too. I was just avoiding doing mischief everyday, for my own reasons, but i've had a blast doing it every once in awhile. I needed those experiences. Thank you. Thank you for helping me to become more independent. A lady needs her independence. Remember at Hopcat when I lost the keys? We tried to hide it but we were caught? haha we weren't the sneakiest.
      Thank you for the times we listened to vinyls and just relaxed. Remember the time the house was filled with smoke and we didn't even notice? Remember how I almost burned my kitchen down, but Vampire Diaries saved the day? Thank you for trying Octopus that one day. You were so adorably disgusted. Remember thanksgiving? We ate so much food. How about sushi moto and vanilla coke? I giggled so much. Remember how we quit my garage sale? Garage sale fail. We made so many memories in such a short amount of time. Seeing you always brightened my day. Remember when we were accidentally an hour late to church? I have that on video and laugh every single time I watch it.
        I remember two weeks before the stupid fallout. I had told Joe that you would be in my life forever. I still wonder how it all fell apart. We just weren't strong enough I guess. Remember our last time we hung out? We sat on the floor together, hiding from the  world. We talked and laughed and felt so comfortable. That feels like a lifetime ago. I miss it sometimes. Thank you for all the little notes and drawings you used to leave me. Thank you for trusting me with your secrets, which I plan on keeping until the day I die. Thank you for being as friend infatuated as I was. We hated being in separate cars, or just separated in general. If there is one thing you take from this, know that I always cared so much about you and you meant, you MEAN so much to me. So thank YOU  for letting me know you. Love you always and wish you all the amazing dreams in the world.