Even though I have gotten better with anxiety, and stressing about people’s opinions, it doesn’t mean that I don’t still struggle with it. It is something that I have to overcome everyday. It’s easy to say, you don’t care about what people think, but it’s being around them that’s a battle. There are those people in your life, who seem to always be judging you. You can make all these changes, and grow into a peaceful, confident person, but then when you’re around these people, you feel like you are two feet tall. You forget who you are, and you start to try to become who they want you to be, but it’s not authentic, and they are still judging you either way, because it’s who they are.
But you see, YOU let the people in your life have control over you. YOU care too much about what they think. It’s really not their fault. I mean it’s their fault for judging you, and never letting you feel good enough, but it’s your fault for letting their opinions affect you so much. Songwriting is a therapy for me, so I wrote a song to help me put words to my feelings. When I write songs, I channel all my frustrations into my music, and it helps me not linger on bad feelings! Every word is very near and dear to my heart, and I could try to explain what every part means of the songs,but I like when words speak for themself :)
I try to break the chains, that shackle me to your prison.
You hold the key to my freedom, but I gave it to you.
You got my trippin all over my words, I’m struggling to be heard.
It’s like a drug, and it’s like an addiction, I don’t think I can win.
All your opinions and all your perceptions are crawling through my skin.
Just when I think I’m moving forward, I fall right back in.
So let the downfall pour, and wash away all that lay before.
So let the downfall pour, I’m not the same little girl anymore.
I’m trapped inside this shell, that I created for myself.
And I like to blame it on you, but it’s my fault too.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"
-Eleanor Roosevelt
